As always I try to bring you guys sharings from others as well as write
some myself so that you can see things in a different light. It is
a time to celebrate with family and with friends, but dont forget that
the reason we have christmas is because God gave his son to die on the
cross for our sins. This was a sharing written by a John Loi, hope you
enjoy it.. -tT
In that place between wakefulness and dreams, I found myself in
the room. There were no distinguishing features save for the one
wall covered with small indexcard files. They were like the ones in
libraries that list titles by author or subject in alphabetical
order. But these files, which stretched from floor to ceiling and
seemingly endlessly in either direction, had very different headings.
As I drew near the wall of files, the first to catch my attention was
one that read Girls I Have Liked. I opened it and began flipping
through the cards. I quickly shut it, shocked to realize that I
recognized the names written on each one.
And then without being told, I knew exactly where I was. This
lifeless room with its small files was a crude catalog system for my
life. Here were written the actions of my every moment, big and
small, in a detail my memory couldnt match.
A sense of wonder and curiosity, coupled with horror, stirred
within me as I began randomly opening files and exploring their
content. Some brought joy and sweet memories others a sense of
shame and regret so intense that I would look over my shoulder to see
if anyone was watching. A file named Friends was next to one
marked Friends I Have Betrayed.
The titles ranged from the mundane to the outright weird. Books
I Have Read, Lies I Have Told, Comfort I Have Given, Jokes I
Have Laughed At. Some were almost hilarious in their exactness:
Things Ive Yelled at My Brothers. Others I couldnt laugh at:
Things I Have Done in My Anger, Things I Have Muttered Under My
Breath at My Parents. I never ceased to be surprised by the
contents. Often there were many more cards than I expected.
Sometimes fewer than I hoped.
I was overwhelmed by the sheer volume of the life I had lived.
Could it be possible that I had the time in my 20 years to write each
of these thousands or even millions of cards? But each card
confirmed this truth. Each was written in my own handwriting. Each
igned with my signature.
When I pulled out the file marked Songs I Have Listened To, I
realized the files grew to contain their contents. The cards were
packed tightly, and yet after two or three yards, I hadnt found
the end of the file. I shut it, shamed, not so much by the quality of
music, but more by the vast amount of time I knew, that file
represented.
When I came to a file marked Lustful Thoughts, I felt a chill
run through my body. I pulled the file out only an inch, not willing
to test its size, and drew out a card. I shuddered at its detailed
content. I felt sick to think that such a moment had been recorded.
An almost animal rage broke on me. One thought dominated my
mind: No one must ever see these cards! No one must ever see this
room! I have to destroy them! In an insane frenzy I yanked the
file out. Its size didnt matter now. I had to empty it and burn
the cards. But as I took it at one end and began pounding it on the
floor, I could not dislodge a single card. I became desperate and
pulled out a card, only to find it as strong as steel when I tried to
tear it.
Defeated and utterly helpless, I returned the file to its slot.
Leaning my forehead against the wall, I let out a long, self-pitying
sigh. And then I saw it. The title bore People I Have Shared the
Gospel With. The handle was brighter than those around it, newer,
almost unused. I pulled on its handle and a small box not more than
three inches long fell into my hands. I could count the cards it
contained on one hand.
And then the tears came. I began to weep. Sobs so deep that
the hurt started in my stomach and shook through me. I fell on my
knees and cried. I cried out of shame, from the overwheming shame of
it all. The rows of file shelves swirled in my tear-filled eyes. No
one must ever, ever know of this room. I must lock it up and hide
the key.
But then as I pushed away the tears, I saw Him. No, please not
Him. Not here. Oh, anyone but Jesus. I watched helplessly as He
began to open the files and read the cards. I couldnt bear to watch
His response. And in the moments I could bring myself to look at His
face, I saw a sorrow deeper than my own. He seemed to intuitively
go the worst boxes. Why did He have to read every one?
Finally He turned and looked at me from across the room. He
looked at me with pity in His eyes. But this was a pity that didnt
anger me. I dropped my head, covered my face with my hands and began
to cry again. He walked over and put His arm around me. He could
have said so many things. But He didnt say a word. He just cried
with me.
Then He got up and walked back to the wall of files. Starting at
one end of the room, He took out a file and, one by one, began to
sign His name over mine on each card.
No! I shouted rushing to Him. All I could find to say was No,
no, as I pulled the card from Him. His name shouldnt be on these
cards. But there it was, written in red so rich, so dark, so alive.
The name of Jesus covered mine. It was written with His blood.
He gently took the card back. He smiled a sad smile and began to
sign the cards. I dont think Ill ever understand how He did it so
quickly, but the next instant it seemed I heard Him close the last
file and walk back to my side. He placed His hand on my shoulder and
said, It is finished.
I stood up, and He led me out of the room. There was no lock on
its door. There were still cards to be written.
i just wanted to share this great analogy of our lives hope you
find this interesting and helpful...
Jesus loves you allBy HIS Grace,
john. :
Jesus is Lord!
May the love of God, the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ and the communion
of the Holy Spirit be with you all